........trapped in the shell of a middle-aged, arthritic suburban mom. Have you seen her? You know, the one who let herself go?
Yeah. I know. I've seen her, too. Often. In my mirror multiple times a day.
You'd think I'd make the connection, make the change, but I just can't seem to do it. First it was going to be after baby #1. Then it was going to be after baby #2. And now baby #1 is eighteen years old and on the verge of beginning her adult life, taking classes at the local state university, meeting new people, going on dates, and living her own life. Away from mom.
Sigh.......I'm not ready yet. I'm really not ready. It took me years to think of myself as a stay-at-home, fully committed MOTHER. Now my paradigm is I'm ONLY MOM.
What happened to that free-spirited, risk-taking woman I knew? The one who could charm a room of strangers, especially men?
I'm seeking her.